Eight weeks ago my health took a bit of a nose dive and I have been on sick leave since then. This was not good as I love my job, thankfully I have a very supportive and understanding boss which has helped to remove a lot of the stress and guilt that I would normally have felt at being off work.
Over the last eight week’s there have been quite a lot of negative moments for me but there have also been some really good positive moments too, which I am going to concentrate on in this post. The first of these positive moments was during a talk on the phone with my boss, I was telling her about my worries and fears of not being able to work and not being able to carry out my volunteer tutoring role, as these are such important part of my life and wellbeing. The first thing she did was to reassure me that I didn’t have to worry about work and to just concentrate on taking care of myself.
We arranged to meet up for a chat and whilst having a coffee or two we talked about what sort of things I could do to stop myself “climbing the walls at home”. She suggested that maybe I should I start writing a blog. Recording how I manage to deal with and live with, several long-term health conditions day-to-day whilst at the same time feeling I am still making a contribution and still helping others at the same time. Whilst I am not able to go to work
When I got home I found myself thinking back to when I had attended a free NHS course, called the Expert Patients Programme. Now during the EPP course I learnt many tips and techniques on how to live better with a long-term health condition. One of the techniques I heard came from both the tutors and participants, the technique involved writing down all the positive things that happened each day, such as watching a beautiful sunrise or chatting with a friend. Then when you were feeling low, down or depressed you could go back to your journal and use these positive memories to help pick yourself back up again.
It wasn’t really my thing, but a couple of days later I found myself thinking about it again and decided to give it a go. I decided my journal would only focus on the positive, good things that happened to me or that I saw each day and the things that made me smile or laugh or made me happy and as I was a keen photographer I decided I would also take a photograph each day of something that also made me smile or made me happy to add to my journal. For a long time doing my journal like this worked really well and helped me a lot.
Then as my condition changed over time so did my journal, first the daily photographs stopped as my mobility worsened, then it stopped being a book and I stared to just keep a log on my computer, after a while I just stopped doing it completely, I’m not sure why. then a couple of years ago I was given a happy jar for Christmas which reminded me of how much I had enjoyed doing my original journal, I still have the journal in my shed and still look at it from time to time to cheer myself up. I also still have my happy jar which I add too every once in a while.
So back to present day and for me health is changing again, so now I am hoping that blogging will become my new journal. It will include everything that is going on in my life at the moment and hopefully, as I become more confident and more at ease with writing a blog, the post’s should become more regular.
So over the next few posts I will be talking about the different I am trying out at the moment whether they work for me or not, I’m also hoping that writing this blog is one of the things that is going to help me cope with life going forward, and if reading it helps others out too then that’s a bonus.
Be kind to yourself