Good & Bad

So over the last couple of weeks there have been a lot of changes going on, some good some bad,  but mainly good.

Got to meet up for coffee and a chat with my old boss Karen which is always a plus. Also got to meet up with one of my fellow volunteers, Ian, it was great to catch up, have a bit of a laugh and drink coffee, and also managed to to have a coffee and a catch up, with Sue, I used to share the office with her, and we talked about my possible return to volunteering again in the new year.

Thats three pluses.

The wheelchair archery I  started last month is going really well, I’m so glad I decided to  do it,  there also a great bunch of people, at last a bit of a sociaal life.

That’s two more pluses

As for bad news, well I’m dealing with the jobcentre, even though I cannot work, I’m  being hounded by the DWP for a current fit for work doctors note, even though the one I  sent them says I have been signed off work indefinitely, and today a 20 page capability for work questionnaire dropped through the letter box, oh joy. Though I  will now be getting Employment and Support Allowance for a year.

So that’s two big negatives.

The car got damaged, a foot long gouge along the top of the rear wheel arch, courtesy of one of the neighbours kids on his bike. More costs.

 

Another big negative.

Got more hospital tests happening on the 16th, so this could be a plus  or a negative, will have to wait and see.

West Ham have now won there last two games.

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That’s another two pluses. The pluses win 7-3, gotta love that.

Take care,

Gary x

 

 

 

 

Day 6, My First Attempt

The next post will be my first attempt at writing, if you have the time please read through it and let me know what you think about it, honesty please.

I want writing to become a big part of my life’s reading has. So I need to start sharing, I need to start getting pieces written and out there for all to see.

The first piece I have written how my life has changed over the last 7 years and how I have I have become the person I am today. A pretty positive one.

A little heads up on what I am living with health wise these days. I have allergies to eggs, fowl and peanuts. I live with anxiety, depression, Asthma, Type 2 Diabetes, Osteoporosis (spinal damage), undiagnosed MS (Spinal cord liaison), Neuropathy, Tested positive for Sarcoidosis (in remisson) and to top it all off Fibromyalgia.

Birthday #57

So Friday was my birthday I’m now 57 yrs old. I don’t feel that old mentally, I still feel as daft as I was when I was in my early 20’s, but physically things have not gone so well I feel about 107.

The day started off pretty well, a few cards and presents from the family, a few books that I wanted, a bit of lindt dark chocolate, a tee shirt and tickets to go and see Harry Potter World when I’m feeling a little more up to it.

After everyone had gone off to work, Dora decided she wanted to go on one of her rare walks, damn near killed us both, but still enjoyed it as it’s not that often we get to do one now.

Then after getting home it was time to get ready as I was going out to lunch, meeting my work mates at Pizza Express, good food, great company, good laughs and excellent presents, cinema vouchers and a bottle of local “Silly Moo” cider. Been so long since the 4 of us were in the same place together.

Friday evening was spent eating popcorn and watching another present I got from my eldest, a DVD called “Bad times at the El Royale” excellent movie, by the time I got to bed I could barely move, but after having such a wonderful day I really didn’t mind though as Saturday and Sunday had been earmarked as rest days.

Saturday was spent mainly in the garden with Dora sleeping beside the bench and me reading the latest book I’d bought “Made in Scotland” by Billy Connolly, and watching a fantastic FA Cup Final between Man City and Watford and the best part of Saturday was I didn’t have to watch  Eurovision, result!, pain levels were ridiculously high but a good day in all.

Sunday got off to a painful start, eventually got downstairs the Mrs went off to work and I went into the garden with a coffee, Dora and my book, should hopefully finish the book today.

So the wife is home now from work and my youngest is on her way. Tonight is Takeaway night as it was my birthday Friday  and so I will be partaking of a Lamb Vindaloo, Pilau rice and a garlic naan.

All in all a damn good weekend

Thank’s everyone for the cards, presents, company and birthday wishes you all made the weekend a good one.

Party on dudes

Gary  x

Changes

It’s been a little while since my last post.

Things are starting to change change for me at this time due to my ongoing health conditions, my time working for the NHS, a place I love to work with people I love to work with. I think I will miss this part most of all.

Hopefully though I will still be able to volunteer for them in some capacity my health permitting as the service is very important to me.

This morning was my formal meeting with the HR department to formalise the next step in leaving, a very friendly and amicable meeting, now I just wait for the next meeting and the final decision.

Back home now, feeling a little flat as this is the start of a door closing on a very happy part of working life. I will still be in touch with and involed with EPP so at least I still have that side but I will miss the work.

Anyway the sun is shining and I am ing the garden typing up my blog whist the lovely Dora chases rabbits in her sleep on the lawn, I was horrible and woke her up for the picture then she immediately went back to sunbathing and chasing rabbits.

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I’ve known my leaving the NHS has been on the cards for a while now, so I have started making plans.

Firstly looking after myself and being more assertive, saying no when I need to, by listening to what my body is telling me.

Secondly is just enjoying the moment, living  one day at a time. Doing things I love listening to music, reading a book, waatching the world go by listening to the sounds in my garden (Though this does not include the sounds of my neighbour’s arguing, or the many children screaming shouting or fighting)

On a football note West Ham won there last two games of the season and finished 10th COYI and Brighton managed to stay up by the skin of there teeth. Though I do not support The Seagulls myself good luck with finding a top manager for next season.

This week it’s my Birthday, I can’t believe I will be 57 on Friday and will resist the urge to eat baked beans that day. I think it is true what they say that when you have kids time speeds up as my daughters will be 25, 23 & 21 this year yet in my head I still think I’m 32, the year I got married to my wife, the year my eldest was born  and luckily I was a lapsed Catholic for obvious reasons. I’m guess what I’m trying to say is grab life as tight as you can and wring the life out of it and I consider myself very lucky that, that is what I have always tried to do.

Finally I just want to say I have finished reading  the latest 2 books, the first is called “Why are you pretending to be Normal” a book I’ve read before, but have found to be really helpful, it’s about living with disabilities and impairments, learning new ways of looking, thinking and talking about them, the stories techniques are from people who are already using them to live there lives

The second book is called “This is going to hurt” Secret diaries of a junior Doctor by Adam Kay. The book made me laugh so hard at times I had tears rolling down my cheeks, his sense of humour and compassion shines through but ultimately left me heartbroken.

everybody that has used, will use and does use our amazing NHS should read it and reccomend it.

Thank you for listening to my ramblings

Remember live, laugh, love but don’t, live, love, laugh or your partner may get annoyed with you.

Love you all, take care, Gary

Just for good luck  COYI.

 

 

A Good Bank Holiday Weekend

Good Friday

Had a really good day today, I decided on Wednesday that I wanted to go to the local nature reserve tomorrow  (Saturday).

So I spent today preparing for my trip to the reserve. I went through my camera equipment selected and cleaned the lenses that I thought I might need,  after I charged the camera batteries, cleaned and tidied my camera bag, then repacked it with what I would take.

Sometimes I think the planing, anticipation and preparation  is almost as good as actually going.

Saturday

Great start to the day by going for a little walk with my Dog. Loved it as it has been a long time since we’ve been able to go for a walk together.

The Wife dropped me off at the Nature reserve. it was a very hot day, so before going into the reserve, I bought a coffee renewed my membership then sat outside the cafe to drink my coffee. unpacked my camera and took some test shots.

There wasn’t much wildlife about as it was too hot for them. I slowly made my way through the grounds taking plenty of rests and enjoying the views of the pond. then I found myself in a quiet spot in the woodland area found a bench to sit on and just watched all the families rushing around doing the easter egg hunt, had a fantastic day and didn’t take a single picture.

It’s not always about the picture , sometimes it’s about just enjoying the moment and your surrounding’s.

Also another one of my monthly bucket list challenges started.

Easter Sunday

What a glorious day, lovely and warm, I spent most of the day sitting in the Garden in the shade reading my book that I got on Friday, It’s called “Harry’s Last Stand” by Harry Leslie Smith and by late afternoon I had finished reading it, haven’t read like that in a long time, I really could not put it down. I followed Harry on Twitter, as like me he is a socialist. the book covers his life from his birth in  1923, through the impoverished time’s of the 1920’s and the great depression of the 1930’s, his part in the as part of the RAF during world war II, his life as a happily married family man. He compares his unique experiences from a child growing up in a time of austerity during the great depression, to the austerity we have been going through since 2010. the similarities are frighteningly undeniable. I am not ashamed to admit his story brought a tear or two to my eyes, but the one thing running through the book was the strength that he possessed to get through everything that came his way, but also there was his optimism for the future, that people will create the kind of society that works for everybody and leaves nobody behind. Reading this book has awakened my love of reading again, which I lost when i became unwell back in 2012.

This book and its message gives me hope for the future and my children’s future.

For the evening the brother-in-law came over for a nice chilled out family roast dinner, perfect end to a lovely day

Bank Holiday Monday

For me today will be a day of rest to let my body recover a bit. I shall mainly watch a bit of tv, sit in the sun with the dog, I’ve already chosen my next book it’s called “East of Croydon” by Sue Perkins. based on her tv show where she travelled around Asia, great series so I am looking forward to starting the book.

Going to call my Godson later to see if he can pop round sometime this week to do me a quote on running power to my shed, maybe he will even be able to do the work for me, paid of course.

Also looking forward to a planned coffee morning with a work colleague on Friday morning.

Have decided that I will need to rest up Tuesday as well.

What a perfect weekend

Take care of each other

Gary

 

Football

Okay so good and bad this weekend, first the bad The Hammers lost away again on Saturday at Old Trafford against Man Utd 2 – 1, so still no away win in 2019, but we have over 40 points so we are safe from going down this season.

On the plus side the West Ham women’s team beat Reading in the FA cup semi – final on penalties and now face Manchester City in the FA cup final, fantastic result.

I started going to Upton Park in 1983 when the great John Lyall was manager in the old first division Tony Cottee was top scorer that year, the legend that is Billy Bonds was Captain, it was the great Trevor Brookings last season, at the back and Alan Devonshire on the wing. ive seen many great players over the years, Julian Dicks, John Moncur, Paolo Di Canio, Frank Lampard jnr, Rio Ferdinand, Joe Cole, Martin Allen, Mark Ward,Ludo Miklsoko, Steve Potts, John Moncur, Steve Lomas, Jermaine Defoe, Frederic Kanoute, Marc-Vivien Foe, Trevor Sinclair, Glen Johnson,  Ian Pearce, Tomas Repka, Yossi Benayoun, Mark Noble, Teddy Sheringham, Bobby Zamora, Carlos Tevez, Matty Etherington, James Collins, Phil Parkes, Alvin Martin, Frank McAvennie, John Hartson, Slaven Bilic, Stuart Pearce,

 

I grew up in South London, so for me my local teams were Tooting & Mitcham, Crystal Palace or Wimbledon but none appealed to me. For me finding the team I have supported since 1974 has been West Ham United and was down to my Grandfather and his for the team he had supported since the late 1920’s. I would sit with him on a saturday afternoon watching world of sport and waiting for the teleprinter to come up with the football scores and pools results, all the time I would be  listening to stories of the greats Moore, Hurst, Peters and god knows how many times I heard how West Ham had won the World cup for England I was hooked. When I started following them the Great Ron Greenwood was still manager and he introduced the free-flowing style of football based on the Hungarian style. two years later Ron was managing England.

To me West Ham are the greatest team in the world and every year they put you through the emotional wringer. all the games I have seen were played on the hallowed ground of Upton Park, I watched games from all 4 stands the atmosphere in the Chicken run (east stand) though was the best, most games I saw though were from the front row of the West stand. the best ever atmosphere though was on Tuesday night games under floodlight with the stadium singing I’m forever blowing bubbles, it was so emotionally charged the hairs would stand up on the back of your neck.

I miss those afternoons with my Grandfather and his stories and I miss those days at Upton park watching West Ham playing the beautiful game. One of the nicest things for me was being able to attend games with my wife and all 3 of my daughters, so at least I know I passed something Important on.

Now all I have to do is watch them play at the London Stadium a few times a year which you may have noticed is no my Bucket List.

Take care

Gary

Bucket list update

Off to a flying start.

So on Thursday got to go out for a coffee and it ticked all the  boxes, nearly.

So what do I mean about ticking boxes. Well below is my list of what makes a perfect “going out for a Coffee means”, but for me there are 2 types of “going out for Coffee

Type 1

  • 1/  firstly it helps if it is with someone who is great company, but also someone you feel comfortable around, it also helps if its someone who has things that you both like talking about whether its music or work , family  or football and football is one of my favourite subjects as I am a West Ham United supporter and K is a Brighton & Hove supporter, so the myths are true that supporters of different teams can get on without starting a war.
  • 2/  Just getting out of the house is a big lift for me, it’s just so good to be in different surroundings and of course good coffee helps and nice location.
  • 3/ Excellent service and staff, which of course can make or break the experience of enjoying a relaxing day out.

Type 2

  • This is one where I am happy  to sit on my own or with company and drink my coffee.
  • On these occasions  I like to people watch and just make stories up about them in my head, when doing this I can let my imagination run wild, it can be such good fun.
  •  3/ Also on these occasions I like to take my camera with to do some street photography, which I love doing as I feel that each picture you take can tell a really great story.

A great side effect of doing this is it helps to alleviate feeling isolated and lonely, it can help with feeling low,  if its warm and sunny it’s a great source of vitamin D ans can also help to lift your mood and its a good way of just staying sociable and keeping up with whats going on, for me though the best thing  is I would be doing something that I really enjoy doing and it can often be an inexpensive way  of enjoying some time out of the house.

Have a good day and I hope you have a good weekend. COYI

Gary

Bucket List

Okay, so in my last blog I said I was going to write down a new bucket list. I had actually started thinking about what I wanted to do, how big or small I wanted the actions to be, Whether I wanted it to be big things like “I want to run the London  Marathon” or something small like “I want to make a model airplane”.

Any way here goes.

My Bucket List.

  •  1.  Attend at least 5 West Ham home games next season.
  •  2.  Get out and about with my Camera at least twice a month.
  •  3.  Go on a UK weekend break this year.
  •  4.  Work. Find something I can do from home, something creative
  •  5. Go out for coffee with a friend at least once a month.
  •  6.  Get power  installed into my shed.
  •  7.  Write my blog at least once a week.
  •  8.  Do a creative writing course.
  •  9.  Read a book a month.
  •  10. learn to make the best Chilli oil & Chilli sauce  possible.

 

So here is the list that I came up with. I am not saying I have to do all these, but try to do some of them.

Take care

Gary